Although that would be perfect I know that it's definitely not realistic. I am also fortunate enough to have put the work pedal down the past couple of weeks and managed to finish everything with time to spare; which is some what of a stark contrast to any other year that I had finals.
I look at this week as an absolute gift, time for 'me time' and although I would love for my friends to be finished already and to spend it with them, it's nearly more beneficial to take the time to myself and appreciate this year here.
I took a walk out along the rim trail tonight and found my favourite spot at the edge vacant, got comfy on the bench and sat. I have no idea how long I sat there but in no time at all it had went from a beautifully bright summers evening to darkness, I was left with the streets below as my only light.
We tend to focus solely on the negatives and shine less light on the positives and the good times that we have had, I can confess to doing this in the past for sure. I mean this in the sense that when we for example, have only a short length of time left of something then we tend to focus only on the fact that we have that short time and not on the fact that yes we have this length of time and look at all the cool things that we can do. We are only human and its what we do but do you ever just take the time to sit and just sit?..... Think. Be thankful. Grateful. Happy. Live in the moment.
I did tonight. I sat on that bench, unaware if anyone was around me or what was happening but I looked at the exact place that I was sitting; mesmerised by the perfectly beautiful little town that I was watching over. A town that was only a name to me this day last year, exactly four days ago on 24th April 2014 I received an email to say that I had been placed in Fort Lewis Durango Colorado.
I obviously had the Fort down as an option since it was somewhere that I felt I would fit in, with all the outdoor activities and small community vibe it just so happened that other people happened to think the same and placed me here. What a difference a year can make, I never knew that I was embarking on one of the most excited,testing and rewarding adventures of my life and hopefully not the last.
If you haven't already figured out I am quite the sentimental person and when it comes to experiences and magic moments I really am a sucker for making notes and doing my bit to cherish these moments in a form I can only feel is fitting... words. So that if it manages to reach even one person, that they will benefit from it in a way that helps them make a decision. In some sense what I am trying to portray is the message that when decisions, life, school, the little things, the big things etc get all too much for you to handle, taking a step back and breathing, be thankful, be relaxed or don't think at all. Just appreciate what you have done to date and know that no matter what you have to do, everyone has the ability to make the right decision; "No decision is the wrong decision because everything happens for a reason."
Good luck x